Depression - One way to go about it

Sorrow, grief, temptation. Just one of the few things we associate with depression. Depression for me, more than just a 10 lettered word and why not, having an on and off for 5 years relationship with such state of mind. Losing hair, being sick, mood swings, planning to leave the house or even put an end to the misery by any necessary force are just a mere symptoms of what depression is.

It's like this never-ending labyrinth to which the destination leads to another. It's when all the hope is lost, having no one to look up to. Faith and belief lose their existence. Fear itself now has no meaning. One becomes immune to pain and grief. Fantasies and past becomes the savior but slow poison of present reality still making it worse. For me a person with real depression is the person who would expect it to be the last. It may be your best friend, may be a single father of 3 working selling fruits, or just a guy living a perfect life in your opinion. It has no barriers to how it occurs, but more commonly on rejections. Example son getting kicked out of private school, rejection on a job, parents not allowing you to by a brand new cell phone, friends giving attention to someone/something else, and rejections fame or even love. Basically, it can be precisely described definitions by the economists on wants and needs. Depression can also be lead by losing something, either of materialistic or intrinsic value, let's say, soccer coach seeing his team on a 10 game losing streak and on the brink of relegation, Best friend dying in a car accident, branded wrist watch getting stolen. 

Person who's depressed can be labeled as selfish, since he gets so involved within the issues causing the depression, like a black hole, it has an effect on others around him and also drag others into it. He starts to take pity on himself rather than finding the solution or the cause or to ease the pain. Other issues don't matter anymore so getting into arguments every now and then and various other reasons. But again, you can never judge the depth and intensity of the emotion and desire which triggers depression in a person.

Physical depression for me is fake. Wearing mascara, getting tattoos and piercings, wearing makeup and listening to death metal. Person with "real" depression doesn't need it, in his mind he gets scarred over and over and over.

Pity, I won't type down the solutions to pacify depression. Basically because I don't want to lie. And what I would say, I'm pretty sure won't be something I would be implementing on myself anytime soon. So if you have a solution for someone, put them in your own shoes before making a judgment. At least this is what I would do.

A theory on Boredom: Easy Cure made Hard.

Boredom to the extreme can stimulate one's mind into the extermity of different and unsimilar sensations, elation,sadness, or just plain madness and at times all 3 of them put together.

Whatever it is, it's a pure dilemma that solution of this case might not so different from what actually the generic belief is but I'm still yet to find a cure for some complicated hitches.On the contrary, this sheer force of this particular sensation can be considered in some philosphoies as sense of pure genius. It's true that this philoshopy is as phony as global politics but at least I have believe in my judgement not to mention that I love dictatorship. Anyways, back to the pure genius bit, this boredom can make you think deep into yourself, judging your past, the rights and wrong you've comitted (call it an epiphany if you want) and in rare cases like mine, listening to Children of Bodom's "In your face" on Big headphones with full volume and imitating the great Alexi Laiho himself playing the insane guitar solo of that song, point being you can also have a deep look into others as well, their music, their life and if not that, the imitation works on the same level. My judgement in this case might be biased as well, considering the I connect the lonliness and boredom together but yeah, one thing I love about myself is that I love to contradict on my own beliefs but this has nothing to do with me skipping a couple of weeks of Jumma prayers at all. Well, to be fair, one person can be bored with people around him as well, classic case, a classroom with a quatum physics lecture going on but somehow or at least some of us, we manage to keep our composure in them. Others, some brave enough to write the lectures and some brave enough to explore their explicit side in between the lectures. But most of us, remain on the "Munafiq (Hypocritic)" side, we do listen to the lectures but we get turned on by the rebels. Speaking of turning on, being single at times is a big cause of boredom but similarly being committed to, listening to non-stop blab of your partner, and being bored if you don't get to blab yourself or having no one to enjoy your balbity. Same goes for people with BFFs or BFFFs or add as many Fs as you like because no one judges you when you read on a computer.Even a regular acquaintance can make you cry tears of blood. Family..........well, everyone loves them, but they might also have a part to play in this condition occuring over and over and over.

No having no one to blab to at 4:19 A.M in the night, I decided to take the blab on a piece of paper. (I don't remember whether I mentioned that I was suffering from this condition myself with synmptoms far too many to type with 10 fingers) So far, it's has been working out.............I don't know, just okayish I presume. Well, for now this is the only theory I can come up with and this is all only 3.5 % of my entire brain can excrete on Facebook notes at the moment.

Later...........

Well, maybe not cuz I never go bonkers on regular basis.