So one year and four days down the road, trying to make a comeback at writing. Meanwhile, I have written a few poems and only typing i was capable of was mainly on facebook chat. So a bit rusty as it might be, this emo piece might be a kicker or a catalyst into bringing me back into the groove which I lost and became kind of helpless in writing something new. So, here goes nothing......
Eternity I have spent thinking about what could have been right and what I did wrong. Letting go of the thought was more of a savior than an option because the more I kept on thinking about it, more grew my insanity and hatred for me. No it was an cardinal sin but a mere human miscalculation but consequences would appear so grim that taking a fall for it all felt better than being discomfited to prove myself not guilty. You see, you wouldn’t look at me because you despised me, while I did my best tried not to be around you. Every sigh you made and eye-contact you avoid made perfect sense to me. But as forlorn as I might be, I hid in the shadows and did the same so you would smile again. Seeming like this would end of another dead misery I have borne, yet you’ve emerged again, using ignorance as your weapon, avoidance became unbearable yet approaching even more impractical. Dilemma and insanity brought back by you in sending mixed signals to my head. You probably wouldn’t know who I am where this was even written, but in the folds of this text lies my insanity and delusions but what I see feels really true. Because only when I tried avoiding you, you've become my reflection.
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